Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in [ Xudridze :: N. I. Kirov ]'s LiveJournal:

Sunday, April 15th, 2007
1:54 pm	Blondinka [Fuck you Sodapop Kashmire. ] It's official; I'm a blonde emo kid now XD Hopefully black and pink soon o_o.... Er, I found someone else right after the horrible break-up, and I'm not about to tell who it is really but at present they're much better off than the previous asshole. ^^ Not much else as of yet.... I'll update you all soon. Kyr Current Mood: ditzy Current Music: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Sunday, April 8th, 2007
1:24 pm	God damn it. Well, some serious shit has happened that has made my life a lot more difficult in the last week that it usually has been for most of the time I've lived in this state - I've been here for damn near a year, but nothing I have endured has come close to this. First of all, I'm basically being ostracized from my family -- well, my brother at least -  (he's gotten so old x_x) and as of late I've been trying to get my ID back from his bitch of a roommate that can't appreciate company.  Now I get my ass rided on by him because when I said "fuck your hospitality" to that fat whore I GET FLAMED for it, that he bent over backwards for me - bullshit, really. Just more fucking bullshit for me to deal with. After being shoved around a lot by that sad excuse for a woman, then promptly thrown out... I proceeded to put shoes on (no socks... nonexistent) and make my way haphazardly to a gas station to call a friend in order for them to pick me up. Since for the weirded-out wather, there's five inches of snow on the ground and a good cold wind. Wearing an Army-issue jacket and Tripps....walking through the cold desert at midnight... and 10-degree weather. X_X  At this point my right foot becomes open to a giant irritated scar (that's still on my heel @_@) ; I couldn't feel my feet for about half a day, they were so numbed by the snow that kept getting into my shoes... other than that, I've been trying to get a hold of a check (five hundred bucks, thanks much Nick ^_~ your help will not go unappreciated or unrepaid) and cash it, and move on with life, 'cause I've about had it. I'm about ready to change my name and move the fuck away from here, there's nothing worthwhile in North Dakota, there never was, and the only thing keeping me here are my friends, damn it.  Seriously, there's no profession I want here, nothing is paid too well except for the shitty menial jobs and frankly with my aspie-like brain matter, no one will fucking hire me unless they want someone to quit a month later because of sleep issues. I can't even get on SSI or SSDI, not even SSA! This state is the fucking hardest state to get benefits in, I swear to Din an' the two other Goddesses.  Also, sadly there have been some recent issues with my other half that escalated more tensions that I should have mentioned to him. Right now... it doesn't look like much will come to fruition until he decided on returning, and even that's unknown. He's still online, but I think he fell asleep. o_o I love him to death but if he doesn't make up his mind soon I'm forced to play the end hand and I don't want to do that to him, not now, not ever. But until I see the signs, I'm sitting back. ....  -Kirov Current Mood: dirty Current Music: various, manily the Doors ... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 29th, 2007
11:37 pm	Ekhu, buzdetsu mne svoboden? Once again, there have surfaced some doubts as to whether ZMK and I will continue on in our relationship - everything is looking horrible x_x He's been farily avoidant and hard to approach. Avihail and some of my other comrades are questioning ZMK's motive and we are wondering (I at the forefront) what he's been 'up to'.  I'm supposed to go see a psychiatrist for an onset of depression that's been going on for more than the last three months (which is serious btw). I aslo have to talk to the investigator (still!).  Um, Nick and I are going through the DemSoc revision process still - a lot of people are interested in this, and hopefully it will become a worldwide movement with legitimacy that outweighs Marxism ^^  I'm supposed to recieve a stipend this weekend <3 Other than that... same old shit, nothing new. XD -Kyriv Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Um... Berliner collection. (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 25th, 2007
8:32 am	Minor hiatus Un, what a rush. SO much going on... -.- I still have yet to talk with an investigator concering an incident on the nine-month anniversary .... Um... presently awating a stipend from a comrade. And so much of other shit I can't even get wordy 'cause I'll fall asleep and what-not on this keyboard. x_x  I'll come back later to this, otherwise, it's warm, I'm decent and if anyone can answer why shit happens, anwer that and stay fashionable.  -Kyriv Current Mood: lethargic (Comment on this)
Monday, February 19th, 2007
5:26 pm	Mhmn.... -.- Alright. This day is ... killing my back. Bill Hicks is always a hell of a man, despite his death in 1994. Din rest his soul, he had a motherfucking point - we are surrounded by consumerism and bullshit. I mean, look at all the labeling in society - stigmatizing and usual crap most pitiful humans do. In retrospect I wish he didn't die. He could have made the world a lot more deranged place. XD But still. Right now I'm just waiting for my other half. Like he'll show up right away... -K. (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 18th, 2007
6:27 pm	X_X Nope, no dice kids, I have to wait until Tuesday to turn it in now. As of late I've really needed a good release, I've been to some new places and it seems like the moon is affecting my gigantic libido in a bad fashion. Anyways, Valentine's Day is a lie, shit like that. It's all a fabrication. Consumerism, people! I got hammered a couple nights ago and went to a refurbished theater to watch some movie. That's about all I remember.  The Party is holding. Nothing really new to report aside of I have developed an uncertain ambition to collect every emo and post-emo band out there on CD. -.- Shoot me now. (I still got my Soviet music to listen to; but I need to find more!) -Kirov Current Mood: horny Current Music: DPRK r0x0rz! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 13th, 2007
7:31 pm	Hm! I've done the housing application! Ura! Anyways, well, now I just have more to go through. All is well on this front! Now I just need more members to join in the Society. -.- I'm going to be on hiatus for a week or so, I have to wait and see if I get approved.  Da skorou! Current Music: Meh. (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 10th, 2007
3:57 am	Ei za >_> Um... hi. >_> <_<  I'm Kirov .... Just another thing to post how I'm faring. Hehe. I dunno what else to say, it's 0400 and I'm kinda ... in pain.  -Kirov Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Soviet Retro (Comment on this)